My First Candle Spell

Yesterday I did a spell I wrote on Thanksgiving.  It's my first spell (both writing and working), and I'm eager to see how it will play out.

It was a candle spell.  I love working with candles, so it only made sense for me to use a candle in my first spell.  I feel like I put a lot of thought into it, but the self-doubt in me is wondering if I should've spent more time writing it, or if I worked it properly.  I know I put my intention into the spell, which was the point of working it.

I know I need to be confident in my skills.  If I always doubt whether or not something will work, it never will.  I need to believe I can do it.  And as for whether or not this spell will work...well...I have to start somewhere.  If I wait until I "know enough" to work magic, I know I'll never feel ready.  There's always more to learn.

I think in this case, learning by doing is a good method.  Most people I've talked to have said magic either works and you know it, or it fizzles out.  I don't foresee any huge backfiring of this spell.

I'm also trying not to think too much about it because I don't want my thinking/watching to change how I view signs that may come about from the spell.  I want the spell to reveal itself.  It's sort of the same thing as thinking you're going to get a cold, then you start feeling sick.  I don't want to convince myself of anything one way or another.

We'll see how the spell goes.  I'll definitely report back on it!

"Nature" is what we see (668)

"Nature" is what we see--

The Hill--the Afternoon--

Squirrel--Eclipse--the Bumble bee--

Nay--Nature is Heaven--

Nature is what we hear--

The Bobolink--the Sea--

Thunder--the Cricket--

Nay--Nature is harmony--

Nature is what we know--

Yet have no heart to say--

So impotent Our Wisdom is

To her Simplicity.

--Emily Dickinson

Today's Horoscope

This is my horoscope for today:

These past years have forced you to do some very deep self-analysis. A slow and powerful transformation is underway now that will force you to become more serious about your life's purpose. There's no need to consider any immediate changes in your overall path, but don't try to escape the inevitable. A shift in your long-term goals may be unavoidable, yet it should be a major improvement if you take it slowly and deliberately.

I'm not sure what this is referring to exactly.  Hubby and I are trying to get pregnant with our first child, so it could be that, but I'm also trying to make a living as a full time writer, so perhaps it's referring to my writing career.  (I have been getting lots of work lately.)  I guess we'll have to see how it plays out.

My Book of Shadows

I've sort of finished my Book of Shadows.  There's still quite a bit I'd like to add, but for now, I've got the basics.  I haven't decided what, if anything, will go on my title page.  Right now there's nothing on it.  I may leave it that way until I'm ready to do my self-dedication rite.  Then I'll put my Craft name on it and perhaps something else.

I have lots of reference-type information I've gathered recently that I'm going to add to my journal/mirror book.  That's stuff like magical associations with days of the week, information about the Elements, meditation techniques, etc.  It's all the information that I need as background information for my BOS stuff to be effective.  I know a lot of people keep all that stuff with their spells and rituals in the BOS, but for my purposes, especially right now, it will be good to keep things organized like that.  Especially since, once I'm more familiar with all that background stuff, I won't need to refer to it as much.

My next step for my BOS is to start adding recipes, herb lore, runic alphabet, and things like that.  I may get a full astrology chart made and include that, as well.  I also have some quotes, poetry, and songs I'd like to add, but I know I'll need to stop by a scrapbooking store to get more pages for that, and I'd rather get the recipes and things in my BOS first.

It was suggested to me that I should include information for adding people to my circle or coven information "just in case," but I haven't decided if I want to do that or not.  Sometime down the road maybe I will find like-minded people to join with me in circle and/or start a coven, but for right now, I'm happy to be learning as a solitary Witch.  I don't want to get too ahead of myself and start a coven on a power trip or something like that.  That's not why I'm studying.

My Personality

Your Personality is the Rarest (INFJ)

Your personality type is introspective, principled, self critical, and sensitive. Only about 2% of all people have your personality - including 3% of all women and around 1% of all men. You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Judging.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

You're Going to Hell!...But First Will You Do This Spell for Me?

It amazes me how quickly people change their minds about things when it suits them.

There are people I know who are "praying for me" since they've found out I've been learning Tarot and Wicca.  They don't understand why I'd turn away from the church and away from the Christian God to a Pagan religion.

And yet, when they want to know something or they've had a dream they don't understand or they want a spell done for them, they turn to me.  They don't pray for the answers (well, they may, but they still come to me) or read the Bible for divination.  They ask me to do a Tarot reading or they ask if I know what their dream means or if I'll cast a spell so they get a job or whatever.  That just figures, doesn't it?

People just change their beliefs and values to suit their needs.  Sort of "thou shalt not suffer a witch to live"...unless she can do something for you.

If you think I'm going to hell, fine.  I can live with that.  But think that all the time.  Don't pretend everything's fine between us when you need something from me.

/rant

Reading and Learning and Reading

I'm so grateful to have a library system that allows me to read a great list of Pagan/Wiccan books!  I recently received and read books by Dorothy Morrison and Raymond Buckland that I found incredibly helpful!  I've started keeping a list of things to include in my Book of Shadows.  Quotes, recipes, spells... yay!  I'm enjoying learning so much!

I've had a bit of a breakthrough with my Tarot deck, as well.  I did a reading for Hubby and instead of trying to remember the interpretations of the cards to tell me what his reading was, I let the cards tell me more.  I looked at them and went with my gut and didn't worry about the picture that was on the card, or whether the card was upside down or right side up or whatever.  And I felt a much stronger connection with the cards than I have until this point.  It was wonderful!

I knew people said I needed to let my intuition tell me what the cards were saying, but I didn't fully understand what they meant, and I figured I needed a foundation of meaning first.  But I get it now.  And I'm much more excited about reading now!  Hooray!