My Personality

Your Personality is the Rarest (INFJ)

Your personality type is introspective, principled, self critical, and sensitive. Only about 2% of all people have your personality - including 3% of all women and around 1% of all men. You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Judging.

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You're Going to Hell!...But First Will You Do This Spell for Me?

It amazes me how quickly people change their minds about things when it suits them.

There are people I know who are "praying for me" since they've found out I've been learning Tarot and Wicca.  They don't understand why I'd turn away from the church and away from the Christian God to a Pagan religion.

And yet, when they want to know something or they've had a dream they don't understand or they want a spell done for them, they turn to me.  They don't pray for the answers (well, they may, but they still come to me) or read the Bible for divination.  They ask me to do a Tarot reading or they ask if I know what their dream means or if I'll cast a spell so they get a job or whatever.  That just figures, doesn't it?

People just change their beliefs and values to suit their needs.  Sort of "thou shalt not suffer a witch to live"...unless she can do something for you.

If you think I'm going to hell, fine.  I can live with that.  But think that all the time.  Don't pretend everything's fine between us when you need something from me.

/rant

Reading and Learning and Reading

I'm so grateful to have a library system that allows me to read a great list of Pagan/Wiccan books!  I recently received and read books by Dorothy Morrison and Raymond Buckland that I found incredibly helpful!  I've started keeping a list of things to include in my Book of Shadows.  Quotes, recipes, spells... yay!  I'm enjoying learning so much!

I've had a bit of a breakthrough with my Tarot deck, as well.  I did a reading for Hubby and instead of trying to remember the interpretations of the cards to tell me what his reading was, I let the cards tell me more.  I looked at them and went with my gut and didn't worry about the picture that was on the card, or whether the card was upside down or right side up or whatever.  And I felt a much stronger connection with the cards than I have until this point.  It was wonderful!

I knew people said I needed to let my intuition tell me what the cards were saying, but I didn't fully understand what they meant, and I figured I needed a foundation of meaning first.  But I get it now.  And I'm much more excited about reading now!  Hooray!

The Moon

The moon was beautiful tonight when Hubby and I ran out to get pizza.  It was still low in the sky and a golden color--somewhere between orange and yellow.  I wish I could've stood outside all night just watching it.

I did attempt to get a few photos of it, but the camera I have isn't professional quality, so they didn't really turn out well.  (When I upload them I'll see if any work for posting to give you an idea of the beauty of the moon tonight.)

I love seeing the moon at night, especially when the sky is so clear.  I wish our apartment had windows on the opposite side so I could see the moon from our bedroom.  We're hoping to move into a two-bedroom in the next year or so, so I'll be paying attention to which way the windows face when we look for our two-bedroom.  It would be wonderful to be able to open the curtains at night and have moonlight flooding into our bedroom or my office or the living room.

For now, I'll happily peek outside at night to wave hello to the moon.

Blessed Be!

A Step Out of the Broom Closet

My husband's parents are Catholic.  They don't go to Confession or pray the Rosary every night (that I'm aware), but they do attend Mass every week, and adhere to the dogma of the Catholic Church.

Hubby and I haven't attended Mass in quite a long time now, though we've only recently started practicing Wicca/Paganism.  Well, his parents attended Mass this evening and afterward called Hubby.  They asked when we were going to go to Mass again, and told him he needs to believe in something.  When he told them we've been practicing at home and that we do, in fact, believe in something they didn't believe him.  They all but called him a liar.  So he said that we have been exploring religion at home, and mentioned that we're studying Wicca.

My jaw dropped.

It's not that I don't want them to know, but I know how his parents are, and I don't want to cause unnecessary stress because of something that's really none of their business to begin with.  I didn't think he'd ever want to tell them, to be honest, and since we're solitary practitioners, it didn't need to be told.  (I haven't told my family yet.  I know my mom will be much more laid back, but I'm just not ready to tell them yet.  When the time is right, I will.)

I'm not sure what his parents are going to think now, or how they'll act.  I don't know whether they'll tell my mother-in-law's parents, who are devoutly Italian Catholic, or how the holidays will be (will they expect us to go to Christmas Mass?).

To be honest, part of me is relieved that they know, no matter how they're going to react.  (Maybe they'll stop pushing us to attend Mass.)  I feel like there's this important part of my life I've been careful to hide, and maybe now I don't have to anymore.

I won't, of course, throw it in their faces that I'm Wiccan.  I won't wear a huge pentacle necklace at Christmas dinner (I wouldn't wear a huge pentacle necklace anyway), I won't say a protection spell out loud before going into their home, and I'll never, never argue about their faith.

Spirituality is a very personal thing, and I would never ridicule someone for their spiritual practices.  After all, who's to say mine is better?  It's just different.  We're all different people, and we all need different things, spiritually.  I won't discount their spiritual path, and I hope they won't discount mine.

I guess I won't need to hide my altar when they come over now.

Book of Shadows

I'm working on pretty-ing up my Book of Shadows.

I knew I wanted to use a scrapbook for my BOS, and originally, I simply wrote everything out and put it in so I could have everything together.  Now that I have a framework of my BOS, though, I'd like to make it prettier, so I'm making it look more like a scrapbook than it originally looked.  It's going quickly, and the embellishment papers I got go well with the album's cover design, as well as with what I want to do with the pages.  It's very earthy-looking, and I'm able to use colors and design to suggest what the page is about (for example, the page that tells how to cast a circle has circle designs on it).  I think it's working well.

The great thing about the scrapbook album I'm using is that it'll be very easy to add pages, as well as rearrange things if I need to as I continue to practice, deepen my spiritual beliefs, and share information with fellow Pagans/Wiccans.

I'm also thinking about adding a section in which to put poems, quotes, stories, etc.  I know lots of people have little tidbits in their Books of Shadows of things that are important to them, things they've read that struck them and they want to remember.  So I'm going to do the same.  I love reading, so I think I'll need a whole section for quotes and stuff in my Book of Shadows.

I'll post pictures of my BOS when I've finished with the pages I'm working on this week.  It's already turning out beautifully, and I think personalizing it like this will help me have an even stronger connection to my Book than simply hand writing it.

Blessed Be!

Another Step on the Path

Well, after Samhain, Hubby and I got a little busy.  Then NaNoWriMo started, and I've been even busier!

I've been reading Drawing Down the Moon by Margot Adler.  I'm not very far into it, but it's already been quite helpful in my reading and research of Wicca and witchcraft.  I'm borrowing it from the library, but I'm hoping to get my own copy soon.  It seems like the type of book I'd like to refer back to frequently.

And when I read books like this, it helps me see that I'm making the right decision in my spiritual path.  Yes, I know I still have a lot to learn, and I'll tweak my practice over the years, but I know I'm finally on the right path.  I feel like I've come home spiritually.

There's so much of what I'm learning about Wicca that I already believe, and now I just have a name for it instead of keeping it to myself because it didn't fit the Christianity I practiced.  Wicca just makes sense to me.  It blends all I believe and throws some really great things into it to deepen the spiritual path.  It's absolutely wonderful.

I've also been trying to learn more about Tarot.  I've been doing readings as often as I can, and I find myself developing a bit of intuition when it comes to the interpretations of the cards.  This is a good thing.  I'm becoming quite a bit more comfortable in the readings, and I'm beginning to see how the cards fit together to give a picture of what the seeker needs to know from the Universe.  I love Tarot.

I would still like a set of Ogham staves.  I found a pretty set that's pretty much within my budget that looks very nice, so I'll probably either get that set, or make one of my own.  My apprehension with making a set of my own is that I would probably have to use dowels or something like that, and I'd rather have a set that's made from quality wood with the symbols burned in, and sealed to prevent damage.  So I'm going to think about it a little longer before I make my decision.  I have to have a connection with these staves, and I don't want to just decide in a hurry to get them and then not feel a connection with them.

I'm looking forward to the Full Moon Rite I'm going to do; I've invited Hubby to join me.  I don't know if he will or not, but he knows he's always welcome.  This will be my first Esbat celebration, so I'm really looking forward to it.  Afterward, maybe Hubby and I will take a walk and be out in Nature for a while, and let the power of the moon energize us for the next month.

Blessed Be!