My life, as I prepare for Yule

My husband and I are moving this weekend, so I haven't blogged here in a few days.  I apologize.  Life is just a bit crazy.  We're planning to be out of our apartment by the end of the day on Sunday, so we have a lot to do between now and then.  And I'll be doing a lot of meditation to help keep me grounded and at peace, and to not let the hectic-ness and anxiety of everything get to me.

Fortunately, once we get settled, I'll be back to some semblance of a normal life and I'll be back to blogging regularly.  There's a lot I want to explore as I learn and read about Wicca and Paganism.  And though my new living situation will be a little difficult to adjust to (even if it's only going to be briefly), it will provide me an opportunity to continue to learn and grow.  That's invaluable to me.

I posted a few days ago about the results of my first candle spell (well, really, my first spell ever).  I didn't give any details, really, but I can tell a little more now.

My candle spell was an "easy" one.  I charged the candle and spoke with the Goddess as I lit it, then meditated as the candle burned down.  Once it did, I left it on my altar for a couple of days, and every time I saw it, I was reminded of my intention and took a moment or two to meditate again on the issue.

Afterward, I spent a lot of time thinking about it, wondering how it would play out.  There was part of me that was sure it wouldn't work simply because it was my first spell.  I told myself I don't know enough to do spell working effectively.  But, there was also a big part of me that said it would work because spell working is so often about intention, and I was incredibly clear on my intent.  In fact, my meditation during the spell working lasted quite a bit longer than I expected.  (I ended up meditating for over an hour!)

Then, I got very clear confirmation that my spell was successful.  At first, I was ecstatic about the issue, but after the initial excitement faded a bit, I realized that this was the issue my spell was dealing with, and I was ecstatic that it worked!  It made me feel more confident about spell working, and I'm really looking forward to my next spell working!

Because our home situation is changing right before Yule (and Hubby's Catholic family will be in town for Christmas), I haven't decided how I'm going to celebrate the Sabbat.  For Samhain I did a ritual, but I don't know that I'd be able to cast a circle and do a full ritual for Yule this year.  So I'm going to see, once I get in our space, how I can modify the ritual I have, or decide if I want to write a new ritual that will accommodate the situation.

For now, though, I need to concentrate on packing, I think.

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It worked!

I got confirmation yesterday that my candle spell worked!

My First Candle Spell

Yesterday I did a spell I wrote on Thanksgiving.  It's my first spell (both writing and working), and I'm eager to see how it will play out.

It was a candle spell.  I love working with candles, so it only made sense for me to use a candle in my first spell.  I feel like I put a lot of thought into it, but the self-doubt in me is wondering if I should've spent more time writing it, or if I worked it properly.  I know I put my intention into the spell, which was the point of working it.

I know I need to be confident in my skills.  If I always doubt whether or not something will work, it never will.  I need to believe I can do it.  And as for whether or not this spell will work...well...I have to start somewhere.  If I wait until I "know enough" to work magic, I know I'll never feel ready.  There's always more to learn.

I think in this case, learning by doing is a good method.  Most people I've talked to have said magic either works and you know it, or it fizzles out.  I don't foresee any huge backfiring of this spell.

I'm also trying not to think too much about it because I don't want my thinking/watching to change how I view signs that may come about from the spell.  I want the spell to reveal itself.  It's sort of the same thing as thinking you're going to get a cold, then you start feeling sick.  I don't want to convince myself of anything one way or another.

We'll see how the spell goes.  I'll definitely report back on it!